Christmas Time?

Really it is Christmas time already?
i felt like yesterday i was getting back from band camp

well i guess that doesn't matter. i have decided i hate school
i really will be glad when i start college and all that stuff. when the time comes
maybe... now that i am typing it i will miss friends

anyways twilight the movie.
i loved it, i don't care what you all say i thought it was amazing
most people i have talked to didn't really like it
i will admit it was NO WAY near as amazing as the book but
come on that is a given, but Robert Pattison (Edward) such a F*@#ING!
HOTTIE!!! anyways jasper was super duper hott too, alone with Jake but that is a given
can't wait for new moon

mmm... what else. nothing really. any good books out?
i haven't read in a while and it being christmas i want books!
but i have no idea what to read. anyways i will talk to you all later
hopefully i miss you guys.

i am not gone

it has been forever and a day since i have been on a computer

that is half the reason i haven't talked to anyone... sorry about that

the other half has to deal with the fact my brother lives on the computer

anyways i wanted to say hi to everyone and let, umm kat and ink know

that i am not dead that i still every much alive

but i mean i am having a kind of hard time... but i am at school so probably not a good time to talk about that... anyways talk to everyone soon

Coke

i just needed a title
plus i have been drinking a lot of Coke...
anyways...

i am bored.
that is about it really
i don't think i have told peoples
that i passed my driver's test! how exciting i know
mostly because ink already knows so it is mainly to tell Kat
because i don't know anyone else who reads this... anyways...

back to me being bored.
well that is about sums it up does it.
i am bored. lol
well i am going to try to go back to sleep to make this day go
by a little faster, hopefully.....

School Almost Back?

so i am going to band camp next week

i just got back from a vacation in Texas thing
hanging with my much older brother, his wife and my niece.
fun and boring, details even more dull, trust me... : )

but i did hit this AMAZING used book store, loved it.
got two books for 7 dollars, and this devil dog we have taken in for a friend
(long story) ripped up my copy of the Golden Compass series but
lucky for me the used book store had it so my mom got it for me, 10 dollars!

i am happy about that...

anyways the book i got Wicked and Wicked 2, not the play wicked, different one
really good, about a witch coven... thing, foridbbin love, all that jazz...
god it has been forever, not to metion i am so tired, went to bed around 2 or 3 can't remember
then woken up by devil dog (dog isn't really that bad, but it really pisses me off) especially after it chewed up my peter pan hat i got from disney world... now that isn't something you find at
any old store... anyways.

my birthday is on it's way and that means i am going to be a year older, and look the same, and
be the same in every way just means i am moving up in school. how sad. anyways...

breaking dawn, now that is news, is coming out soon, going to a mid-night release party with
friends, i think it will be a blast, to bad i can't buy it. dang birthday, since my b-day and the book coming out so close to each other, aka 4 days i am not allowed to buy it... same thing happened with esplicse, as long as no one tells me what happens i am okay with it. and i will kill if someone does.... just a warning. anyways....

i guess i should be off this is really long after all, then again haven't been on for ages. talk to you all soon

School Almost out?

yeah i am going on 6 and a half more days not including weekends.
that can only mean one thing, *sigh* examens, meaning exams in spanish.

which for that spanish exam i have to do a skit and it will be amazing. a how to be emo!
anyways moving on, i have a horse show this weekend. umm still going to phsyical theorpy
anyways. i started a new story, again, lol, i really like this one.

next- TWILIGHT!!!! holy crap i can't wait to see the movie, i have seen clips and stuff it is so great
and Breaking Dawn how exciting, like what 2 months until it comes out?! it is a little sad though because Twilight series is ending. and i love the new cover. anyways i wanted to say how i am freaking out about twilight for like the 8th millionth time. no joke. lol

peek-a-boo

well hola. mi hablo penquo espanol. i speak little spanish. it is great fun.

anyways just posting to say hi there. i have had a few ulimatiums throw my way.
don't think the girls that made them remember, which is a good thing. lol nothing illegal just boys. lol.

ummm i just wanted to post that peoples that read this, so umm Ink and Kat,

you should check out Tokio hotel, german band inwhich you can hear there music in english
they are great. anyways.

i went to a concert, MCR to be exact, it was amazing. anywho. nothing really. i don't know.

life is going alright and i am sort of glad, SORT of being the key words here, that i am not in soccer. i have been busy. and i get updates from friends from the team anyways they aren't doing so hot. anyways talk to everyone later.

book wise, Great Gatsby, is okay but mind you i had to read that for class. so yeah. strange book. keep with the classics, Twilight, Wicked Lovely and Maximum Ride.

ps don't tell me about the 4th one for max. ride i have not read it yet

hola amgios

i am at school like always and i am hanging with band friends.

we looked up the two face Indian baby. and the pregant man. i think that is all

we dicussed very strange things and laughed a ton. it was fun.

well that is about it. bye

oh yes my friend from band wanted to say hi. we love her. she is great

wow

well i just looked and it has been a year since i have had this thing up.

strange how fast time goes by.

we wish when we are young that we will be grown up as soon as possible but now

i want time to slow way way down.

anyways i was just stopping in to say it has been one year. for me.

wow. that is cool. anyways later. maybe i will get on more but i am going to try to

find a job to fill the empty void that is my life. as i like to say lately.

srew life!

so last night i had soccer try-outs. i got cut. i am pissed. sad. and many other things.

not to mention i have so much more going on in my life i really didn't need that. i was looking so forward to it too. you can't really understand unless lets say you have been doing this almost all your life and for the past two years of your school year had to do with soccer at some point suddenly when you don't want it to be gone it is ripped from you. not to mention you have to see the girls walking around in the new jerserys and the sweaters and and sweat pants they are getting. while you wish you could say i am doing something after school.

life is a slow way to die. is what i said during math as i sat wishing so much that i didn't have maybe three to four of the soccer girls in that class talking about soccer already.

last night when i ran to see who was cut and who wasn't i looked fractically for my name m, or b what is what i was looking for. i couldn't find myself. i felt the tears filling the bottom of my eyes blurring half my vision, the twingly feeling i get in my nose when i am about to cry came on. i grabbed my things and ran out into the freezing cold. it cut through me like a knife adding onto my pain. i kept walking until i could find a place to sit by my lonesome. i sat my back to my sister whom was also cut. the crys coming out of my eyes with out me willing them too. nothing ran through my mind, it would hurt to think about it. minutes past finally our parents drove up.
i already knew what they were going to say, and i screamed before they could, i scream for them not to talk to me. the tears stopped but then with no warning they slipped from my eyes, the car ride was the slowest one i have ever had. i passed something i have always seen before and yet when i passed by it usually it took two seconds to fly by but now it took two minutes. i stared at the stars and wished that there was music it was too quiet. too quiet. my sister was still crying openly. when we hit our drive way when the car was on brake i jumped out and walked with my dog to my room. i shut the door and buried my face into my pillow. they wanted to talk i couldn't. i wouldn't. only going to get worse from here. everything i did around this time of the year dealt with soccer. broken heart from a thing you kick around. ha funny right.

peek a boo

droppin' again.

nothing really to say.

val. day this week. sh**

i hate that day, so therefore i am single no guy in mind.

anyways there is nothing to say.

nothing is going on.

i am going to hang with friends hopefully...

mi gusta queso

yeah there is no reason for me saying i like cheese.

i couldn't think of any other title.

it was a long time ago, since i last posted. i really don't have much to say

nothing has happened that i want to talk to about

so anyways i thought i would pop in and say hi.

good books to read, got none for you especially since i am reading Secret Life of Bees

so school. it isn't bad but whatever.

finals are devils

so anyways it has been awhile.

but who cares.

i have been stuck with homework every night. tonight i had double amount of homework. anyways i had a sort of good day. i had a good first part of the day and the rest was sort of blah. has you ever wanted something so badly you will work so hard for it but not hard enough but the thing is you want it right then and there but you can't and you have to wait but that is totally impossible. it is hard to explain but as i walk down the hallways to lunch and coming back from lunch i walk head down just thinking about listening to the same song over and over understanding the lyrics so much wishing i hadn't. anyways. i just wanted to say that to someone.

i feel like i am losing one of my best friends, because of something stupid. it isn't between me and her btw.

so on a funnier note we took these survys on who you would work for. it was a thing if you want the results you have to pay because it is a fundraiser. and i think my favorites question was, "what do you think you are?" answers: a peacok, a kitty cat, a shark, a puppy dog, or a monkey. we duh i am a puppy dog, one of my friends was a kitty cat and other was a peacok. anywas most people probably BSed the thing so i sort of want to see but i sort of don't. what do you all think? do it or no?

anyways i get to go see sweeny todd tomorrow i am excited everyone has told me it was really good! so yeah.