peek-a-boo

well hola. mi hablo penquo espanol. i speak little spanish. it is great fun.

anyways just posting to say hi there. i have had a few ulimatiums throw my way.
don't think the girls that made them remember, which is a good thing. lol nothing illegal just boys. lol.

ummm i just wanted to post that peoples that read this, so umm Ink and Kat,

you should check out Tokio hotel, german band inwhich you can hear there music in english
they are great. anyways.

i went to a concert, MCR to be exact, it was amazing. anywho. nothing really. i don't know.

life is going alright and i am sort of glad, SORT of being the key words here, that i am not in soccer. i have been busy. and i get updates from friends from the team anyways they aren't doing so hot. anyways talk to everyone later.

book wise, Great Gatsby, is okay but mind you i had to read that for class. so yeah. strange book. keep with the classics, Twilight, Wicked Lovely and Maximum Ride.

ps don't tell me about the 4th one for max. ride i have not read it yet

hola amgios

i am at school like always and i am hanging with band friends.

we looked up the two face Indian baby. and the pregant man. i think that is all

we dicussed very strange things and laughed a ton. it was fun.

well that is about it. bye

oh yes my friend from band wanted to say hi. we love her. she is great

wow

well i just looked and it has been a year since i have had this thing up.

strange how fast time goes by.

we wish when we are young that we will be grown up as soon as possible but now

i want time to slow way way down.

anyways i was just stopping in to say it has been one year. for me.

wow. that is cool. anyways later. maybe i will get on more but i am going to try to

find a job to fill the empty void that is my life. as i like to say lately.

srew life!

so last night i had soccer try-outs. i got cut. i am pissed. sad. and many other things.

not to mention i have so much more going on in my life i really didn't need that. i was looking so forward to it too. you can't really understand unless lets say you have been doing this almost all your life and for the past two years of your school year had to do with soccer at some point suddenly when you don't want it to be gone it is ripped from you. not to mention you have to see the girls walking around in the new jerserys and the sweaters and and sweat pants they are getting. while you wish you could say i am doing something after school.

life is a slow way to die. is what i said during math as i sat wishing so much that i didn't have maybe three to four of the soccer girls in that class talking about soccer already.

last night when i ran to see who was cut and who wasn't i looked fractically for my name m, or b what is what i was looking for. i couldn't find myself. i felt the tears filling the bottom of my eyes blurring half my vision, the twingly feeling i get in my nose when i am about to cry came on. i grabbed my things and ran out into the freezing cold. it cut through me like a knife adding onto my pain. i kept walking until i could find a place to sit by my lonesome. i sat my back to my sister whom was also cut. the crys coming out of my eyes with out me willing them too. nothing ran through my mind, it would hurt to think about it. minutes past finally our parents drove up.
i already knew what they were going to say, and i screamed before they could, i scream for them not to talk to me. the tears stopped but then with no warning they slipped from my eyes, the car ride was the slowest one i have ever had. i passed something i have always seen before and yet when i passed by it usually it took two seconds to fly by but now it took two minutes. i stared at the stars and wished that there was music it was too quiet. too quiet. my sister was still crying openly. when we hit our drive way when the car was on brake i jumped out and walked with my dog to my room. i shut the door and buried my face into my pillow. they wanted to talk i couldn't. i wouldn't. only going to get worse from here. everything i did around this time of the year dealt with soccer. broken heart from a thing you kick around. ha funny right.

peek a boo

droppin' again.

nothing really to say.

val. day this week. sh**

i hate that day, so therefore i am single no guy in mind.

anyways there is nothing to say.

nothing is going on.

i am going to hang with friends hopefully...

mi gusta queso

yeah there is no reason for me saying i like cheese.

i couldn't think of any other title.

it was a long time ago, since i last posted. i really don't have much to say

nothing has happened that i want to talk to about

so anyways i thought i would pop in and say hi.

good books to read, got none for you especially since i am reading Secret Life of Bees

so school. it isn't bad but whatever.

finals are devils

so anyways it has been awhile.

but who cares.

i have been stuck with homework every night. tonight i had double amount of homework. anyways i had a sort of good day. i had a good first part of the day and the rest was sort of blah. has you ever wanted something so badly you will work so hard for it but not hard enough but the thing is you want it right then and there but you can't and you have to wait but that is totally impossible. it is hard to explain but as i walk down the hallways to lunch and coming back from lunch i walk head down just thinking about listening to the same song over and over understanding the lyrics so much wishing i hadn't. anyways. i just wanted to say that to someone.

i feel like i am losing one of my best friends, because of something stupid. it isn't between me and her btw.

so on a funnier note we took these survys on who you would work for. it was a thing if you want the results you have to pay because it is a fundraiser. and i think my favorites question was, "what do you think you are?" answers: a peacok, a kitty cat, a shark, a puppy dog, or a monkey. we duh i am a puppy dog, one of my friends was a kitty cat and other was a peacok. anywas most people probably BSed the thing so i sort of want to see but i sort of don't. what do you all think? do it or no?

anyways i get to go see sweeny todd tomorrow i am excited everyone has told me it was really good! so yeah.