newest poem

life seems to go by so fast
in times i wish stop would stop
i wish i could forever be young
forever be that little child again
to be so innconent and not knowing
i want to freeze time when i am a teen
a teen that has so many dreams
i want to feel as free, like nothing can stop me
no one can tell me what to do with my life
to have that rebellion fire in my heart
i want to freeze time when i'm in college
i want to remember how i made new friend
show i kept my old friends seeing them over summer
i want to feel that scared feeling like you don't know what you''ll do with your life
all you know is it will be great
i want to freeze time when i am getting my life started
i want the time to stop the first time i met my true love
i want to stop time on my wedding day
i want to forever feel the when i saw my child
when i saw my child's first steps
when they went to per-school into high school
i want to freeze time when my childern get married
when they have there first childernfor when they need my help
for when i need there helpthe moment before i die i want to let them know everything i wanted to say before i died

so this is a new poem i wrote just like 5 minutes again anyways i want to write but i don't, i really REALLY need to hang with anna, you know so i can talk to her about things, one of the things being my story,i have decided i am writing a second one, the thing is i really want to know is wrether i should end it with Jess leaving or do that at the beginning which would be alot like new moon but i really don't want people getting pissed at me... so anywho

my story

hey, what's up people that read this, oh wait no one reads this anyways we won two games one we did really amazing, it was 8 to 0 and the i can't remember 5 tp 0 or something the thing is the season is almost over and it is really sad : ( we have a game tomorrow so yeah

anywho i and on like 390 in my book! i am really excited about it but i am sad cause im almost done with it i really like this story a lot!! i am thinking that i'll write a second one to it i have a plot going on!

okay so what is going on is Jess (i'm changing her name) moves alot then her father decides to to move back to his old hometown, when they get there she finds well an interesting guy. His name is Alex and he is making her life horrible but so much better at the same time. He is trying to help her deal with her mother's death that happened 11 years ago. People are after Alex and decide to take Jess instead. Alex must save her, and during all this her father is falling love again to Jess' dislike.

so for the second one i am thinking about having her mother's killer become part of Jess' life. Jess can't get over her mother's death there is somthing missing, and unforutatly her grandparents are taking her away from her father,her new step-mom, Alex, and her new home. She can't tell anyone about why because well she has no idea either. Jess is really sad and she didn't want to go and leave Alex there waiting for what be forever so she breaks it off with him. they both take really hard. Jess decides she is leaving forever from her grandparents. she goes home and wedding is on, Alex disppeared though, so she has to wait it out, but her old enemy Chris comes back. he has information about her mother's killer. now jess is trying to find her mother's killer and of course her love, Alex.

so anywho, i will be back soon, so talk to you later

poems

few poems for everyone that reads this, oh wait no one does! anyways

my hearts breaks slowly
my tears going as fast as my heart beat
my legs going even faster
i'll run forever just to find you

i can't stand to lose you
not after just finding you
life with you has been so much better
my world so compelete now
things changed since then

i can't stop the tears
the heart break
only you can save me
so please please come and save me


for the next one my pride and joy!
i fell that day
you can and help me while others laughed
when i looked up you looked beatiful that day
you stared at me i stared at you
finally you said 'Here is your book.'
when i tried to say thank you it came out all slured and blurred
you laughed a little
your laugh was like an angel's
you got up you walked away
but not alone you where with another girl
i died a little, i was sad
i became to believe she was the devil putting you under her spell
we became friends my feelings never died
ever since that day i loved you more then i can say
finally my dreams came true you broke the witch's spell
you broke up and you were mine
i couldn't believe it but i saw how sad you were
i asked you why, in my slurred blurred way
you told me that she was not the one you loved
she never was
you said you believed the one you loved already loved another
i tried to ask you?
but i was scared to find out who
i had to know after a week of crying
who, who i asked
you, you he said
i stared at him i smiled and leaned in
at last, at last we kissed it was magical and i couldn't help but cry a little
finally i said you are mine! i have always loved you since that day we first me
the answered me back, as did i

alright then back to my wonderfully boring life!! soccer game well last two soccer games 0 to 0 one game was ours though it was close to winning you could taste it! anywho i read the uglies series loved it! and now i have nothing to read so i decided to write the sad thing is that i am almost done writing this one so i am thinking there will be a second one!! so i found a pair of pin-striped high tops that i want. so now i am going back to writing my story now

wee-hoo

so our team had another game umm we lost but i took two girls down it was pretty sweet!! any who there is pretty much nothing happening in my life. the big things are: i want to go to borderes and get a book, kim wants me go to go the movies but i am not sure if i really want to, i want to hang out with anna, i want to NOT run sprints at soccer practice, so that is my layout for this blog.

so pretty much my life is pretty boring besides soccer and the fact that i am about to hit 300 in my story oh yeah first time ever i am super excited!!!

talk about boring

hola

well pretty much nothing has happened well besides my mom made me feel horrbile about myself so i am going to try really hard to lose weight

anywho i found out that i write a lot better with anna around it's kind of funny but w/e i am going to go now there is nothing to write about since i have done nothing that exciting

Happy Easter

hello everyone

just updatng have been slacking off latly

so it's spring break but here it's more like winter break it's snow for god's stake! and my game was canceled because it was snowing so much!! so my easter was okay went by to fast and a little lonly i say that cause usually i have all my family here but no one was here but my grandma so i mean it was that bad but still i was a little sad anyways it went by fast real fast
if you know my family then you know that we don't eat until 9 to 10 normal for me really but we ate at 4 it was freaking unnatural!!!

anyways i ot two books and a cd, plus 20 bucks from my grandma, so i bought another book today and i'll probably buy another one later, but anyways i really liked one of them and i finished it the day i started it, so anyways the other is very confusing so i am not going to read it for awhile

so i was done for now, let me add i am having writer's block sort of and i get to hang with anna tomorrow so i am really happy about that anwyways i probably won't write another blog for quite sometime so sorry if you actually like reading about my confusing somewhat boring life but whatevere it is your life!!

oh come on

hey everyone that doesn't read these, anyways i haven't wrote forever!

quite frankly not that much happened

i finished reading two books on sunday, we lost our first and second game, we have another game tomorrow, i get to hang with anna tomorrow along with we are getting sweet old Dracula movies and old vampire movies cause we are that cool

i can't wait for that!!! i have spring break next week so most likely i will fill you up on everything that matters aka i am doing pretty much nothing!

okay so the reason i really need to write right now is cause i can't talk to anna until a bit, she isn't home, anyways so me and my sister take turns sitting in the front, it is great when we- cough cough her cough- goes by the rules. i hate it when she goes up in the front when it is my turn and she acts like i am taking it out of hand aka blowing out of proption

whatever!!

let me tell you this, when i do that she actually says fine i am not coming or walks away with a sad face, and my mom tells me just to go in the back, why doesn't she ever have to i mean come on!! she does it to me and it is fine but when i do it is is the worse thing i could do besides like beating her up!! i mean WHAT THE HECK?!!