happy or merry?

is it happy or merry christmas eve, i think happy sounds best but still it haunts me...

so most people think ohh yay people are coming, meaning the parents most of the time, but my mom literally said this, shot did i hear a car?!, yeah anyways i am in a newly found bad mood.

you all i think know that is has an injugry so yeah this is hard, i had to clean the whole kitchen by myself, while getting her stuff, and trying to finish my room, ooohh if that doesn't sound bad let me tell you why it was so bad. teenagers room, well everyone knows why. then there is 6 of us in this house, so tons of tons of dirty dishes, she is in a upset mood, i messed up her stupid milk thing. anyways just hoping you are all having as much fun as i am. did i mention i am still in my jimies, and my hair isn't combed. fun right?

10 days til christmas

actually i would have put like 10 days leading towards, something horrible. but w/e

so last night i got my christmas tree.

i went shopping, saw hot guys, but still in love with another one.

even how hard i try to let him go i just see him and i am like wow, he is sweet and cute

i am going to talk to him more hopefully.

anyways that isn't the point

10 days. this could possibly be my fav. est week, simply because EVERYONE is doing last minute shopping, meaning me too but i love how crazy and exciting it gets, mostly i like seeing people freaked out faces... trying to rush.

anyways i have a party i have to attend in like an half an hour so i am going to go

happy christmas, i am not british but me and friends starting saying that when harry potter came out and now it just sounds better.... dk why. :D

what to say

so it is like what a week and a half til christmas right?

well let's see, there are no decorations in my house, like there usually is,

we have no tree,

i have no spirit,

i am bored. i have nothing to do i already did my homework and i have nothing to do

i got new songs on my playlist the first one i love it a lot

there i guess is nothing i can really say. what is there to say, happy christmas?

well hopefully me and my friends can do something fun, two days until the weekend YES

yo

so i found this online, and i liked it so i thought i would show it to you all

so there isn't much to say but that i want to see the golden compass, and i won't be able to see it until saturday, totally bored tomorrow, but that is okay, i needed a friday to myself i guess. i have monday off and i am shopping well window shopping on monday so i am excited. and then my cat just made me really mad but anywho that isn't the point, i just wanted to get on real quick and say hi and i might not be on, eh who i am kiding i will be... lol : D

what to post

so today, i am in school just letting you all know

i have done about nothing what so ever, i have sat here and went on different sites.

because i am done with my slides for a powerpoint, thing but anywho

i am hungry and there is like 10 minutes until lunch

i am sleepy and there is like the rest of this class and band then home, but of course after lunch i will be semi-awake and naps and me don't mix

there isn't much to say, me and Kay had an amazing time on Friday, we went got the movies, which now we have problems with German movies, yeah, well see she wanted to rent this movie and so we did and it was in german and it was about literally nothing, so then at the end the werid child in the movie was arrested. yeah that was the movie. it was pretty wrong never ever see it, not that i am going to tell you the title but still

we enjoyed our pizza and our other movie, amazingly they still can't make the werewolves look semi real what so ever. yeah well she thought it was quite funny when this indian came and put this stuff on one of the girls legs because she was hurt, so she yells out, literally yells, so he PUTS POO ON IT!!! it was quite funny but still good, and i think that is about it, pizza and movies, talking and joking. that was my night, then saturday and sunday i lazed around the house it was quite amazing.... so i have a three day weekend and i really can't wait but it is a monday we have off so it isn't as wonderful as a friday would be but who cares i am going to see the golden compass friday with friends i am excited.

well looker there i did have something to post. that is all for now after using up 4 minutes of my life, and there is only 8 minutes left until lunch now, don't ask how that works out

ginger snaps, grrrr

so yeah that is one of the movies me and Kay my friend are renting. actually it is the third one, i don't reckond this movie unless you like unbelievely creepie movies.

we meaning me and my friends find them fun, exemtrely fun! hehe it is just great fun!

anyways she isn't going to be here until like 45 more minutes and i bored, so i thought i would blog about my day

my day,

made me feel stupid, made me laugh, made me creeped out, and made my head hurt, hehe
so stupid we were watching clips of war movies, like Saving Pir. Ryan, and i have never seen it, i know gasp! anyways, i saw this guy that sounded and looked exactly like Johnny Depp, so i was like wow i didn't know johnny depp was in this movie, my group members looked at me and were like that is because he isn't it, i felt stupid
made me laugh, we were talking yet again why girls go to the bathroom together, my earlier reason was that if one gets raped the other could go and tell someone else, anyways i told my math group about it, mind you there are two girls and 1 guy, and me, so this girl was like why would be be hiding in the bathroom, another girl well call her V was like well he is probably hiding in the stalls, and for some reason i thought it was SO FUNNY!!!! i omg laughed forever, and then the guy was like yeah he is hiding in the little box it was great fun
then there was creeped out, just a creepy guy that is all
i got a head ache, that is all

no title

i really don't know what to put for a title

so i have been gone for awhile

today's question of mine, is why everyone is so excited about christmas

i mean i love it as much as any other person but it is a MONTH AWAY!!

i am just saying why get way over excited about something that is still semi-far away, i know it isn't like three months or anything, but 28 days is a long time and hearing about it in class all the time and it starts to get annoying because you want it to come but talking about it isn't going to make it get here any faster, i am sorry i just a little annoyed

T-Day

YAY no school, because that is THE most important news right, lol

so tomorrow will be that day where there is the smell in the air, heat in the room, many different things all around you and no i am not talking about the food, lol

so there will be a smell of turkey mixed with mixes of pies that fill the room with a sense of knowing that the food will not only be smelling good but the moment it touches your tounge you will be dancing all around because you know it is the one day you can pig out, right, well not for me i love food, lol

anywho everyone you love and haven't seen since who knows when will be around the table trying to either top which saying what they have done or their kids meaning most people that read this blog, lol

so that is how thnaksgiving goes, football , food, and talking, lol have a good one, as they say at my school have a meaningful day! lol

hehe

so me and my friend we are going to call her Kay sit next to each other in band right.

well i love her very much we have fun times, really fun times...

anyways we are silly to the max. and Kay likes to kratate(i don't care if i spelled that wrong) chops my leg, or ficks my leg or arm depending on how she feels that day. it is just out of good fun, so today our band teacher wanted us to clap the rythm of something, so we were clapping until she turned to me with her hands out like i clapped my right hand on her right hand, same with left, so we were doing that, because in a song we play we do that too, so our band teacher stops everyone, stares at us for a minute and starts his rant
"Kay and Becca can you keep your hands to yourself or i am will move you two for the rest of the year until you are out of here!!! GRRRR!" i added the grrr... we couldn't stop laughing, Kay is yelling back at him " i am not going to be here next semster" which makes me mucho sad.... : (
then i yelled back " we are sorry, we will keep our hands to ourselves..." it was great fun!

nothing

so nothing is going on here, just being bored!

go me! but i thought would come on and say hi

i think that i will finally watch Spiderman 3 i haven't watched that since it came out

meaning in the movies, not out to buy,

anyways that isn't the point, i wanted to say hi there

in shock

hehe

i am so excited, i had like the most AMAZING night in a really long time

so there i was there was a benfit concert at my school so heck yeah i am going, cute boys were playing and cutes boys where going to be there, lol anyways!!!

so there were some really good bands there, and my night started out kind of crappy, trust me i really don't care, because i had just AN AMAZING time....

so there i was talking to a sort of new really good friend, and we went and stood by the guy i really like right, so she left and i stayed, and i am not the one to just start a concervation.... so my really good friend being who she is got us to talk, i HAD, GET THIS, A COUPLE, NO MANY, REAL CONCERVSTIONS WITH THIS GUY, OKAY I HAVE NEVER DONE THIS, then later i got him talking just me and him no help what so ever, anyways i was really excited and i am like telling everyone, so i have to go tell someone i care for every much the whole story,

peace and love people!!

cough cough

so i am sick, i love these days...

so here is the reason i haven't been on since, gods knows when, which i am sorry about

first my brother's computer still down

i am sick and i really don't want to fight with him

and my mom had an accdient, she is fine but i was out and about all weekend...

so there are my reasons... amazingly that is all that is going on in my life.

mmmm........ yeah i got nothing.... anyways i hope i can get on more but since i am not at school today this is going to be hard, i have tons of work i am going to have to do... : ( but

HEELLLOOOOO TO EVERYONE!!!

i can't believe i didn't tell you all about my halloween, me and my bestest friend were vampires this year, punk rock blow out vampires, lol, anyways we went with our small friend, she is our age just really really short, and my sister, my sister didn't trick or treat with us, but we went around for maybe an hour. then we left, we went back to our hometown where the firehouse, does this like haunted house, me and my best friend, already went through a REAL one so we weren't scared, the short girl didn't care, beside the floor with mice and snakes, okay so there was very strong glass covering it and she wouldn't go! my best friend pushed her, and my sister, SCREAMED the WHOLE time it was funny!!!

this week's happenings

so i think i told you all about me and a friend's fight, if not we had one

we are done with that now, and now she is hating on a other friend

so anyways getting past that, last weekend i went to a haunted house it wasn't that bad, i am one of those people that have to be literally dragged into it, and i swear like we were standing inside it getting ready to go and i am just like guys i don't want to do this, and i am going this with my bestest friend and her older sister, which i known all my life, the sister's boyfriend, i know him too and another college that i know too, so they were all thinking i was going to leave, i didn't. anyways it was fun

this weekend well that friend i was having a fight with but not anymore, is having her birthday/halloween party, so me and that bestest friend are going to go and get something to wear tonight, literally right after that i have my first horse lessons, WEEEE, and then AGAIN literally right after i have to go to that party....

anyways this week, mmm nothing really has happened drama wise, i wrote a poem about cheese which was pretty wonderful it you ask me, and then i wrote a serious one that might find it's way on here soon... anyways i am going to go

oh i don't think i said this but we got a 1 at band fes. which is the bestest you can do

Grrrness

so i thought me and that friend were getting better, well i guess not

she said that she isn't going to talk to me until i say i am sorry

i think that this is a really stupid fight, so

i wrote her a letter saying that we both don't have say we are sorry because it seems silly

anyways if she still wants me to say i am sorry then i will, but anyways

i really think that this is getting to become like third grade crap and i want to be done with it

to tell the truth she was saying i was actting immature but who is the one gving me the silent treatment.... anyways talk later i am at school again, i have tons of homework as it is so i won't be on for a while.

a week of stuff

first let me start out by saying at a band thing we got the best rating you can get, : D

me and a friend got into a HUGE fight,
(sort of worked out now)


my brother is a dictator of this computer right now!

anyways i am just getting now to say hi and i might not get on for awhile, anyways i love ya all and i am getting to e-mails today i promise!!

shout out

so i am really upset right now

i seriously feel like i only have a max of three friends and one is in a real pissy mood

so this is what happened, a group of who i thought were my friends got together before the game and had a pinic thing before the game, which it didn't bother me that much

THHHEEEENNNN when we were changing for after the game, they were all talking about how they are going somewhere i was standing right in the middle of it and i felt like i didn't exist like i was air that they were feeding on, they knew it was there but they knew it didn't really i would also be there just like the air

i am just really really upset right now... : ' [

ohhh

so i have been gone forever lately, for that i am sorry for

i have been so busy lately, and not only that my brother has been on forever

i was suppose to go to band tonight but something happened i don't think i can say what

anyways i am thinking this week is kind like i am on a cloud, i am mostly floating through this week

it isn't fast and it isn't slow...

it is strange but i like it, i rarely have homework

anyways i have a semi busy weekend but one of those days i am hopefully doing a friend thing!

anyways i will try to post more

whoa

so yeah

i sorted posted about the dance

dinner was great,

we were joking around with the one girl in our group that had a date

he was a PLAYER! he was there with 9 girls, lol

i felt bad for him she left him alone A LOT!

so yeah anyways friends aka two came over after

we had great fun,

bonding, scrubs, office, the usually!

dance dance

so yeah the dance is tonight

in a way i wish i had a date, well you know how

but in a way i am happy

at least now i can enjoy it with my friends

i don't have to worry about my date

and i can just relax, lol anyways i am going to go

forever

i feel bad it has been forever since i have been able to get on, i have been SO busy i am not lying!

so yeah i didn't go see my brother to clarify things, anyways i still have lotz to do since this week is well HOMECOMING!! and oh course i am protesting, like always and did my one and only day today!! these are mine days: Monday = PJ day, Tues.= Neon/Glow in the Dark day, Wed= Pool party day (so many will be in trouble for that one), Thursday= Cowboy/Ninja/Pirate day no joke, and then Friday school color day or something, i did neon day and that is all i am planning on doing

anyways in my math class i think me and guy 1 were ready to kill ourselves, guy 2, 3, and 4 ( a kid that sits at another table) were discussing whether Telebubbies or Muppets were better, and which ones would rule the world, yeah no joke!

: ( bye bye bye

yes i realize NYSC or something like that sang that lovely song,

but irony i am not listening to them and i am leaving, i will be gone for 4 days, it is saddening...

anyways i will try to get to a computer while i am at my brother but i can't promise anything

and i can promise this i will be pissed tomorrow! i am waking up at 3:30 in the morning, anyways i am going to go even through i don't want to... GRRR anyways bye all i will miss you all

BIG news

so anyways i do have new bigs,

he answered to the other girl, he said i don't think so...

i know everyone is going to say ask him do it do it, another friend of my just found out and she is in my class with the kid i like, so she is sitting there and we are passing notes, and i told her i wanted to ask someone i told her and now every time i see her she tells me to do it...

the thing is i don't know, i am just so nervous i think that i rather ask him to go see a movie with my friends and he could come... i don't know a dance seems to personal when you barely know him and i think that at a dance you feel like you would have to dance with the person that asked you and i wouldn't want that... so yeah i am not sure

and i really dont know

hola

so i have been busy lately so io haven't posted or did anything which i am truly sorry for, there isn't much to say really.

at the horse show i went to a girl got hurt sort of... her horse reared so far up it like fell or something i am not sure, i think she is fine, and then i was bored out of my mind sort of, and i just want school to be like a lazy day but that isn't going to happen but whatever i am going to go now i am so dead right now it isn't even funny... so night all and hopefully i can get on soon and tell you all the hopefully wonderful news about the guy i like.... like i said hopefully, bye then

YESSSS!!!!!

you won't believe it, i had a doctors appointment

the boot of travel, aaron carl is off!!! YYYYYYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYY

I AM SO EXCITED!!!! and i sort of came to terms with evilgal asking the guy i like and he hasn't said yes but still we will see how it goes...

and i am listening to Don't Stop Believein', there is some weird thing in band about this song, lol

anyways there is nothing more really going on with me, other wise i would let you know, so i might not be on for a while i have a busy weekend i am shopping on saturday maybe most likely for my bro's b-day or homecoming dress, and then i also have a horse show i get to go watch... but i am super excited about the boot finally coming off!

anyways i forgot to tell you all this the nurse i had actually called it the boot, no joke, she is like you can take the boot off, i was like trying not to laugh but either way it was fun have a good fun day alls

*granding teeth*

I WANT TO SCREAM!!
i finally get the balls, not really, to ask Chris and you know what

my sister was at band and i was at the horse team she tells me the other girl that likes him well call her Evilgal, called him and my friend that was telling me to ask him before her was telling her to ask him! i am not so much mad about the fact that she asked him but the fact my friend was kind of betraying me, anyways my sister said that Evilgal didn't get a real answer

either way i am so upset right now
i was going to do it too.

now it doesn't matter, nothing does... i might as well go climb in a hole and stay there for the rest of my life... it doesn't matter anymore. i had my chance and i BLEW it like no other! actually i didn't because i didn't call him since he has been gone for three days but still

i feel sad, mad, and worse of all betrayed...

sorry i know i am a drama queen anyways now i have to go put a brave face on and make dinner yeppie!

days are endless

so the guy i like,
well i have known there were other girls that liked him
but none of them were going to do anything
so i was thinking this girl that is sort of a friend
that she liked him for awhile she didn't
now she does, and she actually talks with him
and i mean i might actually have a chance with his kid if i talked to him
but that doesn't matter anymore
getting down to the point she is asking him to homecoming

i don't know what to say now,
what is there to say when you are totally numb
or just trying to make yourself feel numb,
NUMB it is a word that doesn't mean much
as a feeling it is like you just given up caring even
though your mind or heart, i am not sure yet
is telling you to care, to cry, to feel again

what to do

so yeah i just posted i know but w/e

My Mind, My Heart

Which to chose
Which to listen to
My mind says this
My heart says that
I know my mind is thinking
I know my heart is caring
One is saying let go
The other is saying god no
Which to chose
Which to listen to?

By: your's truly Becca!

I did it!

so i had an essay due on monday right, and i was being myself and waiting for the last minute
aka monday is tomorrow

on saturday night i was telling my sister what homework i had, i dk it i woke up because some weird howling from the TV or rather the fact i was thinking about that essay.
either way i thought that saturday was sunday and i didn't have my essay done.
i was freaking out right, this is 4 o clock in the morning,
so i get up TOTALLY forgetting to put the boot on and start walking i took two steps cussed and sat on my bed and put it on.
i get downstairs, and over to the computer and i think to myself
it isn't monday, i can do it later today...
so i stayed up for about two hours watching pointless TV fell asleep and woke up at 9 it really stucked but i got my essay done that is all that matters

my oldest untold story

so this isn't a story that i wrote it is something that has actually happened to me and i think it might just explain why i am so upset with my friends and them like totally not noticing i am there

okay so in 4 to 5 grade... i was well not the coolest person, i have always been strange. anyways i had a friend and her name is Rachel, and well i thought she was the coolest person of all time... but she had other friends and they hated me, so this is when i had recess right, so everytime we had recess they would run, literally, away from me... i always got really upset about it and just sat waiting until we could go inside and i didn't have to worry about it anymore... EVERYONE i mean EVERYONE would tell me that Rachel hated me, but i didn't believe them. i didn't want to i guess because like i said i thought she was totally cool. i should have listened to them

for those two years that went on and it totally made me upset like almost everyday... so for awhile i stopped being there friends and went back to my friends that i had forever, that would be anna, ps i love her!, and then about in 8th grade a friend that left in 4th grade came back... so i became best friends with her again and so did Rachel... so again i was foolish and became friends with her

then at the ending of 8th grade, i well was advoided by them all... even my friend from 4th grade, that i found out later that she was just mad at me, we fixed and we are good, and then again i was left friendless and i didn't want to trust anyone... i went back to anna after leaving the only true friends i had...

right now i feel as if it is going to happen again... but this time i know I KNOW that they actually cared about me, so i know that if i lose friends like that again i don't think that i could recover and be able to trust anyone but anna... and family. it is hard enough for me to trust people now i am ALWAYS thinking do they actually like me? or are they doing the same thing that Rachel did to me

anyways that is mine now told story... so yeah i am upset and just want to listen to my music and sit in a corner and stare into space thinking about things... but i can't do that cause i don't have anywhere to listen to music or a corner at the moment so i blogged

what does it take?

seriously what does it take?!

i swear to god if i wore a sign saying i am pissed at you guys! they wouldn't get it....

if you don't understand let me fill you in, two of my friends are replacing me with a short, more annoying version of me. i am totally pissed and upset about it, and that isn't even the worse part my ankle has been pounding all day well all night i rather try to chew glass.

i am just so upset. i am sorry, i just really had to talk about it. well i have talked about it to like everyone but the two people that are doing it to me. don't ask me why i don't just talk to them about it. i will tell you why i think i don't want to talk to them about it. because i am afraid that they will think i am acting like a baby or something. anywho thanks for listening, well reading

i am just really really upset and i have been taking it out on like everyone so i am sorry if i like seem like a real witch right now...

the age old question

okay so i had an amazing conversion with the friend from science class, btw who in the heck gives an assigment all about species diversity, no joke i had to write a little paper thing about it, it was stupid, but w/e that isn't the point

we were talking about the age old question for the guys,

Why do girls go to the bathroom together?

well we came up with just because we want someone there with us just because... actually the funny part about that was there was a guy walking with us when we started this conversion up, so he is like right away, I AM OUT OF HERE!! it was funny

so later i asked my amazing friend from band, and she says this in the cutest way, she is like "we go to the bathroom so a guy can't come up to us and rape us..." yeah but it was said really cutely, and funny, so i am like "yeah i guess that is a good reason." but still this is for like all guys that might read this post and might be interested, i am giving you false hope, you will never EVER know sorry!

you boys have secrets we girls have ours

it was a double hitter

or how ever that quote goes...

anywho this is a real post explaining something other then explaining nothing...

so let my first off by saying i was at a horse-show and a family reunion today... both went fine it was the getting there that was the problem

okay so i can drive right? well with a parent but still, i was driving with my mom and we had to stop for gas leaving the horse-show going to the family reunion
so we stop. and i get the gas all is good in the hood,
so i pulled up to close to the pump, so i was like right on top of it, and i went over the little step up thing, with the car
then there was this oval metal thing that is there for no REASON WHAT SO EVER!!
i hit it with the side of my mom's car, at first i thought it was the trash can or something
but i wasn't sure what is was because i had my sister in the back SCREAMING her head off
now how could concernate when that is going on?
so i stop then go because some guy waved me by, i am still hitting it by the way
so my mom says pull over here, so i pulled over
my mom thinks we have flat tires and i just don't know what to think... my sister and mom get out
they are like HOLY CRAP..blah blah blah so i get out
the side of my mom's CAR is dented on the very bottom, from the front door to the almost ending of the back door.... I WAS SO i don't even know... i was shocked. i was freaking out
i kept telling my mom i would pay for it and all that, but she said it is just a car cars can be fixed
i still feel HORRIBLE BTW!!!

so if things couldn't get WORSE right? by this time i was coming home actually heading home/ going back the the horse-show we weren't sure... so yeah
i am on the express way and the car is actually REALLY REALLY strange i look down and it is in second gear, this is a dodge, a big car not the sticks okay so it isn't good
my dad is following behind us so when i pulled over so did he...
we tried driving the car again, and it wasn't working right, and it is smoking out the back so i pull over again
btw my sister screamed a little there too...
so we have to get it towed and see what is wrong with it... SO i destroyed my MOM'S car TWICE in ONE day! i am pretty upset.

beauty comes and beauty goes

i took this in Flordia with the fam. anyways it is the last bit of the wonderfulness of summer i guess everyone is saying it is time to move ON!! lol it will come again

aka it helps to understand if you read my little tags at the bottom

so anywho here ends the first week of reckless searching, chatting, catching up, and to rap it all getting back to the food you know and love! that is right for me this was the ending of my first week of school. to tell the truth the headaches get sweeter every YEAR!! lol

first off let me say i love my classes, they are good. second something great came out of this week, those who don't know i have a crush on a boy, i know SHOCKING!!, lol anywho being serious now, he is in my first block and my 4th which happens to be band!! but anyways i finally talked to him by myself with out the help of friends, it felt good... i am still scared through.. silly i know but whatever.

now what else is there to say? my mornings are brighter with each passing morning, my eyes are getting heavier, my head is pounding, i just want so rest!

first day first day!

OMG first off let me start by, WOW, being in my grade has in advantages i get to push around the youngin's lol but that is from my first block teacher

let me say that i had not that bad of a day... i am writing on here aren't i? lol

first block: i have us history, history we have been taught since the beginning of that history, understand? anyways the first day at my school is all about what we will be learning in that class, groan! anyways i had the teacher before, maybe it was my first year and the almost ending of the year and we both just wanted out so we were both grumpy, but this year he ROCKS! anyways there is another thing to that, i got maybe like totally of three friends in that class

Second block: i was so happy one of my best friends was in there, so i was unbelievably happy!! and the teacher is pretty rad, again we learned what we were doing in that class, aka it is math, and then we played the name game, with a twist, lol

third block: i have one friend i am close too in that class but she has someone else she is with so i talked to the new girl we kind of hit it off, i mean at least we can talk right? again in this block we talked about what we were going to do, aka science, i had lunch between this class, strange i know but at least i have a real friend in lunch! YAY! and then we actually got homework for that class, not something you sign but actual WORK eeekkk!! hehe

fourth block: BAND CLASS lol that should let you all know, it was fine again listened to the same speech i heard so many times before, and we did some stupid thing with where we sit at football games, he is taking all the fun out of all the football games, are we suppose to watch the game? i don't think so we are suppose to be talking to our friends! DUH! lol anywho that was my day, nothing to special but more updates on how my life is going later!

BTW Wick Lovely is an AMAZING book that i think you should check out sometime seriously it is a really really good book!!! by Melissa Marr

no, no, NO!

okay so my school year starts tomorrow, i probably won't be home most of the day thanks to a family thing, grrr

all i wanted to say was that i don't want to go to school, but i have to, and i know that i say i don't want to but to tell the truth school gives me something to do, as soon as we have a long break i will enjoy the first day then i won't be able to wait for school again, the bad thing about school is not so much time on the computer, i mean i will try my bestest to get on and post every other day to tell you how it is going but tomorrow after school i will be on to tell you how the day went

well this goes out to anyone, thanks for making my summer very interesting, and less boring! i really mean that! : D

i copy i know

so yeah i am copying ink with this one i am just recapping my summer golden days!

while to start out with i am too sad about summer ending, but i am also glad about a new year starting, it means a new chance to make more friends, take another step in the long way i have left in my life and hope for the best

well lets see this summer on from the previous ones i would have to say this is one of my favoritest i made new friends that i love, you know who you are, there is a lot btw, i hung with my friends so much and got a lot closer to some of them, lets see i got to ride for awhile i broke my first bone YAY LOL and let's see i have been writing a lot, i am proud of that, i have been reading a lot, watching and seeing strange movies with the friends of course, went to open soccer exactly ONCE lol went to band camp had a good time

i have been really active and having as much fun as i could all in all i think this was a very well spent summer : D

Aircast revealed!

so the boot is a little lighter... but still come on don't they look a lot alike?










anywho those are pictures of the boot, aka aaron carl, so i am off of my ankle/wearing the cast for 4 to 6 weeks. that means no marching band, no horse team, no nothing right now for me, people that hurt themselves or have been hurt before probably understand how upset i am...

so my friends since they are all so amazing, including you ink ; D wanted to make my story sound cooler, more interesting, so there are three of them

First (told by kim): so i (becca) was chillin' in my cabin in Africa, aka i don't have one, and then all a sudden a Puma comes out of no where and starts attacking my ankle, so i was malled by a puma

Second (told my j-me): when i was riding my horse i was going over a jump. which i would never do, and another horse cut me off i fell off my horse and then j-me's horse stepped on my ankle

Third (told by both): i was in the Arctic and i was climbing a glacier with spiked boots and pike forks, yes i know, and then all a sudden a polar bear popped out and jumped 12 ft into the air and attacked my ankle.

so there you go the many stories that are SO believable, and interesting. anywho if you are wondering i am doing fine just upset about not being able to do things i really really want to do

ot oh....aaron?

hey all at this point i am at home from the docs... well at this point since i am leaving to go to the school again all i can say is that i am in a freakin' ski boot. yeah. well actually it is called and air cast i on the other hand renamed it Aaron Carl unless you have a better name please say!!! anywho i'll try to get a pic of it sooner or later more later on everythng got to go!! miss you all

nothing but nothing

a saddle that we are saleing, anyways... it isn't that good but i love it anyways! ps i took these both. i just like the one of my background

so yeah i was just messing around with my mom's new camera i love it!! and well i am going to be out pretty much all day tomorrow so yeah...

have a question for anyone. i was wondering, how you make another blog account thing, like let's say i want one for pictures, and this one separte but on the same name... how do i do that?

anywho that is all. i will miss everyone tomorrow, because i will be busy and i will finally get to tell you all that is actually wrong with my ankle, EK! i hope for the best!!!

so question

i was thinking about doing a picture above on the little template thing and these are the two i was deciding from the two that are showing which btw the writing one will change to my own story that i am writing picture if that made sense anywho which one? or either and find a new one?

my misery is your humor

so i was suppose to go to the movies about three maybe 4 days ago... and i still haven't gone. lets see first someone had a birthday party and another had cheerleading. the next day there was a storm, so i change it all so we were going tonight

well technically i SHOULD be at the movies right now. i was at my grandma's we rushed home and left as soon as we got there, meaning me and my mom. i get to the theater i am already late. i walked in and i can't find anyone from my group, there were suppose to be 4 of us but one couldn't come because of yet again cheerleading so i gave up on her, anywho i start making calls after maybe 5 minutes of my mom talking to my aunt so i call one girl she is still at home and forgot what time, the other girl i couldn't get a hold of, so we left. anyways that is fun adventure for the day and i thought you might want to hear about it... btw we are going tomorrow ,MAYBE

so my week is pretty busy, tomorrow i got the movie (MAYBE), Tuesday i got horse practice, Wed. nothing but i have to help my mom around the house, thrusday football game i have to march in, if i can... then friday nothing but that is my week so yeah...

that is all for now hope you enjoyed yourselves

time is time

so i am kind of bored right now, when i am not

anyways while i was out yesterday, all day by the way, i popped my ankle 4 times, oh mind that at once it popped three of those 4 times, and the 4th pop was the worse, anyways i thought i would just post on how my ankle is going, swelled up is going back down i am limping still but i am living which is good enough for me

i am in love with Eisley right now, btw that is a band...

mmm what do i have to post, really nothing, it is sad nothing is going on in my life... besides the fact that i saw Stardust, loved it, i might be going to see a movie tomorrow, and that is pretty much it. i wish i could write something more exciting, but i can't. enjoy what i have written for you all but i might have a little fun thing for you...

see if you can figure this one out, i can't and i wrote it!

While more or else days go by like a fly it seem my time is shy but when it is high I fly with a million of ties, ties with my friends

So Alone

i thought this was cute!
makes me feel
a little
better

I MISS INK!!! i miss her so much!!!

FOR WHEN SHE COMES HOME, I SAY HI AND I MISS HER!!


: ( but i am surviving with the help of new friends, but i miss her anyways


oh i have a quote sort of:

"Why would you want to live forever? You could live one life with the people you love, and there won't be so much hate in your too long of life. Ever thought about what you would lose to live forever?" - By Becca!

time to make history

Riy guy sleeping (all grown up)
this is sad because i am bored....
there is like nothing for me to say....
there has been nothing going on.....
the only thing is i have been typing Amour like no other but still i am only on 131 out of like 400, it is sad... so yeah
anyways i thought of another awesome book idea
Poem like thingy:

Do you ever have the feeling that you know you will do something great
That you will be someone everyone knows
That you know you were meant for more then a two star town?
That everything you do in your life is to lead you up to that point
You know that one-day you will be the one student people will say I knew her/him?
Or I went to school with that girl or guy?
That you were meant to do something great
Are your dreams to big not to believe that you will become that person?

yeah a little thing i don't think i shared with all of you, enjoy

ouch, OUCH AND ouchie!!

okay so this a short sort of funny story... i don't know my pain makes most people laugh mmm strange anyways...

last night, well let me start by i am on the horse team at my school and i had practice last night...
anyways it was towards the end and i was riding Sully he is the all black baby one, i have a picture of him somewhere... anyways my friend that i love J-me wanted to ride him... so i was like okay... cause our couch thought it would be a good idea so i could try an English Saddle, aka i ride western, and so the enligh's saddles, legs things are higer up and not so much giving as western so my first try i ripped my pants... yes in an embrassing place but no one could see them... anyways moving on.. so i tried again but i really don't know what happened i was almost half way up and then my ankle just kind of snapped.... DON'T WORRY it isn't broken. we are sure what it is... anyway it hurt like hell... i can't walk on it so i am using a crunch.... yes one... they other is broken... it is very hard to get up and down the stairs....

well if you want to laugh i can't hear it so go head, i did a little.... but yeah that is my fun story for the day... sorry ink i didn't tell you in an e-mail so you might not be the first person to read this... hehehe

Home sweet home

That is Riley (my baby) as a baby (yeah i know he was big)
okay so i just finished Ecplise last night at mid-night or so and i really want to talk about it with someone and anna isn't awake yet so yeah i thought i would tell you all that in other news

Yesterday i became an Aunt HOW AWESOME IS THAT!!! anyways her name is Julia and she is on the other side of the country so i won't be able to see her. : ( moving on....

I just got back from band camp like maybe three days ago.... so there are only a few things to say, i hate the Freshman in my section (get this it is just me and him to and i want to hurt him) and this i had to say was one of the best band camps i ever went to, my cabin rocked my friends were amazing and yeaaahhhh.... only a few bad things happen but more on that later i just wanted to tell everyone what i have been up to and that i will get to read all the blogs i wasn't home to read in a while just give me time, i was reading ECPLISE like no other AND I LOVED IT!!!

HOLA

hi it has been awhile since i last posted. lotz has happen.... i passed Driver's Ed Seg. 1 so i can offically dive with someone older then 21 YAYAAAAAAAAYYYYYY!!!!!! and then i have my b-day soon while i will be at Band Camp. so i won't be on for a WHOLE WEEK WOW!! anyways since no one really reads this but ink, i thought i should let her know what has been going on. anyways 2 DAYS UNTIL MY B-DAY
6 UNTIL INK'S (HEHEHE)
AND 3 MORE FREAKIN' DAYS UNTIL ECPLISE COMES OUT!! yayayayayayayayayayay i can't wait anyways that is my post hoped you enjoyed the pointlessness of it all

poem while watching

who should care about those who don't matter?
why should we care they are no one, right?
Standing there thinking they mean something
Why I'm sure it makes all of us laugh
There lonely, needy eyes always asking for more
How foolish they are to think we care
They sit there complaining and moaning it is all,
oh let me have some money
Like I a proper and respectable person like I am
carry around pocket change
It is almost laughable really it is
How funny these people are
These words spoken by a true Homless person

if you don't understand ask me about it, really it does take some thought, in someways it is a satire poem other ways no it isn't but if you don't understand ask me about it i will tell you what i was getting at.

i thought of this

poem on the spot. enjoy, while you can. (you'll understand if you read the poem)

how could we let this happen?
something so horrible but so wonderful
you know you want it but there is a risk to pay
you have to know when you are going to pay it up
to see how long exactly you have
to know how much fun you can have in a certain amount of time
so you know when you can stop believing in hope
you want to know so when the time comes you're ready
so you are ready to take the deep dive into the unknown
everyone wants it and everyone gets it
the thing is how far you are willing to go to get it
would you kill your best friend or even worse yourself
would you give up everything for a few years of fun
so you have to ask yourself,
what is it that you would give everything up for just a little bit of fun?

- ok on a different note. today i made soup, it was very good soup that i loved and my tongue is burnt. i just wanted to let everyone know that my tongue is burnt a little. alrighty then

hp?

to the left we have 30 seconds to mars
center above plain white t's
right (and total hotties) we have panic @ the disco

these are a few of my fav. bands! i thought i should share with the world they are amazing!



so i thought i would tell you all about my amazing harry potterness night, so i haven't read the books seen the movies love them, and i went with some of my close friends that i love! so my friend kim was driving and me and j-me are like where the heck are we, turns out we were going the wrong way, so we had to go back the right way. we get to the bookstore crazy packed and they only had enough for the per-orders. so we are all like okay w/e we can wait.
Plus we got a free glow stick!!
anyways the bookstore is right next to a mall so we walk over to it and the sercuity guys passes us in his car like two times already and we by then are turning back around because the mall is closed. the sercuity guy drove past us for the third time this time though he stopped. he asked us what we were doing and stuff so we told him and he left us alone.

we all decided that we were just going to wal-mart, so we get there and catch up with some other friends. and there we got free braclets saying all the houses names on it. and i got a free poster it was cool. anyways that is my little story that was long

srappy little devil

so i was looking in my notebook thing that i got for school last year and i never used it so i wrote lots of different things in it. i am using it for driver's ed and i came across this poem so i thought i would share it with y'all, words of my teacher for driver's ed class. funny thing is he taught my friend and we talked about him for a minute or two it was fun anyways here it is:

you stand there being wonderful
i can't take my eyes off of you
though we'll never be more than friends
i still can dream, right?
your girl walks back to you, you hold her tight
my hearts races wishing i was her
this was not fair, i am better for you
we are always together and never apart
my heart breaks, this poor girl's heart
we should be together, shouldn't we?
i mean we were meant to be
you and i are so much alike
though you and i will always be apart
maybe, oh maybe we'll be something more one day
but for now all i can do is wish and hope
that one day you and i will be one

okay first off i smell like a stunk, the animal, my dog got sprayed and yes it is the one that follows me around all day long! and other news check this out: http://cutepuppies.ytmnd.com/

to be or

i like cheese, i thought that everyone should know that.......


i have nothing really to say right now, but the fact i just got out of evil Driver's Ed that HAS to start at 8 in the morning, making me get up at 6 30, and the teacher was late today. : )

so since i haven't been on for a while, i thought i would point out i was thinking about reading Harry Potter for the first time, maybe...everyone at my house is like "you're the queen of reading and never read harry potter?!" (aka i am the queen of reading in this household and to all my friends) but at the moment i am reading Nightrise, so yay!

today is tuesday, i think i may go insane these days are going by so slow!! well anywho, this is my recap of my morning thoughts bye

how does everything work?

so anyways i was at the horse show, for like 4 days. it was fun and all, very hot. it was just i felt like my friend that i love very much, it was like she didn't know i was there, i don't know she has her 4-H friends too but i am her friend it doesn't mean let's totally forget about becca or something. i don't know it just made me feel a little sad. : (

i got two A ratings and 2 B ratings, Charlie was being a little poo the last day so that didn't go so well. oh did i mention i was the ONLY yes i did say ONLY person in my class, so everyone in the crowd was watching me, the judge was watching me so if i messed up she would know. scary right! anywho, it wasn't a bad week it was just i was so very tired. first night stormed, aka i was in a tent, next night bugs invaded our tent, i thought i killed the same one over and over and over again. it was sad. then the last night was fine. but when i got home and slept there i slept in until 2 cause the lack of sleep! anways....

lets see i had a birthday party i had to go to. which was kind of horrible, but i got to see harry potter two times in a row. i went with my family one night then the next night i went when friends. talk about fun it was a great movie. maybe i will read the books i haven't decided yet. anyways i am reading the third book to the Gatekeepers so yeahhh. anywho that is my fun little story since i haven't been on. oh yeah i have been looking like no other for a black saddle so that is why i haven't gotten to this yet. well bye until later

this is dark

Love is dark
Love is pain
All we know of love
Is all the good it does

A heart is fne the heart feels
the loves more than anyone could say
when that heart s broen
nothng can heal the pain away

love hurts more than anyone can say
love is dark
love eats at you
All yoou want is for it to go away
this pain is badd, dragging for years
not just for days
how can you ever explain the pain
if you have never felt that way

there is never just good
for this is true
it is hard to say
but love is never always true
so i say again love is dark

this poem is written for my older sister, i know people probably are going to be mad about learning all this but i has to be said. my mom is crying everyone here is, trust me this is all very true but it may not happen to you just don't give up on love, just be safe. love is like fire, so beatiful you want to feel it but it can burn you, just like love if you aren't careful you will be burned, sometimes that burn will take years no joke to heal

i just want to say that if you are reading this and this is or might happen to you some time, think about who you are hurting besides yourself, everyone around is just trying to help they want to protect you, think to yourself why would someone that has been there for you, all your life want to hurt you?

'Love is a powerful thing and to be in love with the unlovable is the worst thing of all." - from the book Wormwood

time to party!

ok so i am really really happy cause i got maybe the best game in the world in my opinion, aka Apples to Apples i love it so much!! anyways

this post is pointless besides telling people that there is a Doctor Who marton on Sci-fi channel but yeah i am going to go bye

once, twice, three times

yeah so i don't know about the heading, i hate baseball, i don't understand it, i just watch it if my friends are playing it

so i was gone for a day and an half, and then i am going to be in and out all week meaning today tomorrow and the next day getting stuff i need for a horse show, this horse show last for like four days, mon-thrusday so yeppie! anyway i thought i would tell you

i will get back to you all later bye!

by the way that drawing is NOT done by me, i went to a bon-fire party that start at 2 we went swimming and after all that jazz we played with chalk, it was fun we went into the street and wrote silly things mine was i eat cheese and i drew a picture of the cheese, it was fun! and that picture was drawn by a friend

tv is my friend

so today i got to watch one of my most favoritest shows ever and i haven't seen it forever so i was really happy about that! so yaaaa! it was a marathon by the way. the show is called BeastMaster. i love that show so much but then it ended and i was sad, but another fav. for the sci-fi channel is coming back called Doctor Who and i am super happy about that. i was though taken away from my show because the blacksmith was here and i had to help, i didn't see why they seemed fine without me. i am probably going to be made to go to open soccer thanks to my mom. but w/e i don't know if i want to go or not but she say something like you have to stay in shape blah blah blah so yeah. anyways i have been writing my newest story for a bit today but biggest highlight of the day was the TV Show cause i love this show very much!

new titles

if i hadn't said this before i am looking for a new name for Full Moon, these are the ones i found i will star the ones i really like please tell me what you think even if it is keep looking

1) Zeal* - love
2)Fervor - love
3) Amour - love
4) Triangle - relationship
5) Veritable - truthful
6)Tangible** - truthful

im number 2?

hey people i am back from the horse show, lets say it went well

i got a first, second, and two A ratings (yeah that is good)

but i was also DQ for the wrong types of boots which in my opinion was lame! but w/e i borrowed from my friends dad's boots cause i have some huge feet, size 10 hehehe but i was good the rest of the weekend

for the second the judge said if i had kept Charlie in a cantor, it is the second fastest run aka really fast, then i would have gotten the 1st, but he kept breaking back into a trot, but i got it later in the day...oh yeah there is only one other girl in my class so yeah that is how that happened, but now i think she is moving on to novice which you can't go back to the regular after that, and after you done novice a couple of times you move on to the bug ring called Ring A that is where my friend is at so yeah i am not really ready for that

anywho it was a good weekend and i did really good so i am happy about that

question

ok i am going to be out all weekend, i am going to a horse show i have to spend the night for two night no, actually three, and i won't be home anytime on saturday i will be home for some of today but i will be getting ready and then sunday i will get home around one or so and i will probably be sleepy so sorry if i don't get back to you i just posted some of the new story up... and i have a very important question

i am looking for a new title for Full Moon

Any suggestions?

plus sorry everyone, sneeze ink sneeze, i won't get back to you and i will try and get back to you soon.

oh yeah to the right is the horse i am showing, i love him very much and he loves his grass very much his name is Charlie!

that is what a plumber is for

ok i am pissed like no other right now! first i am writing a new story only on the computer right, so i got taken away from the computer for what i thought was going to be a few mintues and someone i don't know who yet signed me off without saving it! i wrote a whole another page and a half of stuff and in my own opinion it was great, then i got to the bathroom it is clugged not naming names, my bro, anyways i go to my mom bathroom no toliet paper so i had to go get some from the closet and remember i am already pissed so i am just totally ticked and now i have to rewrite part of my story and i really liked it before but i just hate it now!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sorry it had to be done!

sleep time

this is for Full Moon

Chapter 3 – Sleepover
My next two weeks became a blur nothing changed. Mystery boy was missing and I became weaker everyday. Mandy stopped calling me, I think that she was busy with doing things with her mom, and my dad was gone every night. Began not to be able to sleep and I missed meals, it wasn’t like I was depressed or anything but I was alone and I just had an empty feeling inside. Vicky and Char started to get very worried. I didn’t blame them I looked like crap. Finally Char and Vicky came to my house.
“Hey Jess. What’s going on? You don’t look good today, actually all week.” Vicky said trying to sound kind.
“Your eyes are losing that warm feeling that they were full of the day I met you. It is your dad?” Char asked getting right to the point.
“No.” Lie, somewhat.
“You haven’t been eating at school. Do you eat at home?” Vicky asked.
“Yes.” Lie.
“Have you been sleeping well?” Char asked.
“Yea.” Lie.
“Have you been lying to us?” Char asked. I felt like I was being questioned but that is a great statement cause that was exactly what was happening.
“Yes.” Truth.
“You got to tell us what is going on. We only want to help you.” Vicky said cutting in. “We’re staying over this weekend; we are going to make you all better.” She added with a big smile. They already had there stuff in their cars and put it all in my room. Char ordered pizza and we ate a lot of pizza. I actually had three pieces but it really didn’t help that Char was forcing me to eat the pizza. I was afraid that I would have a bad night and they would ask all the questions about it. We stayed up late just talking. I told them about Mandy and other cities I’ve lived in. They told me about their childhood.
“So when I asked you if you liked anyone you didn’t answer me.” Char asked. There was mystery boy. I wondered if I should tell them. Then I hadn’t realized I was blushing.
“So there is.” Char said, thankfully Vicky was asleep. It was like 1:03 in the morning and then all a door closed. Char whisper to me. “Monday. Now go to sleep.” We both fell asleep tired from talking. I finally slept through the whole night and woke up at 10:50 sure Char and Vicky were asleep but I felt better, not alone anymore. It was Sunday and my friends were leaving as soon as they woe up due to homework. I already did mine. It was true I wasn’t all the way better but I was better than before.
My dad was home, he looked worse than me. His eyes were blood-shot from lack of sleep, he had bed hair that seemed to be that way for a while, he had bag under his eyes and he just seemed empty. He looked pale even if he was tan and he kind of smelled bad.
“Hi.” I whispered. He was staring at his unchanging coffee that seemed to be the most important thing in the world to him at that moment.
“Oh, hi hon. So you got friends over I see.” He said but he sounded horrible and it was like he actually didn’t know I was there. I grabbed something to seat on while I waited for Char and Vicky to wake up. Vicky woke up a little after I did. We whispered to each other, trying not to wake up Char.
“Oh you can stop whispering, I’m awake.” Char groaned. She didn’t sound all that thrilled but she turned towards us. We looked at her shocked, we stared at her bed hair things like that of course we were kidding. We laughed for awhile. It was about 12:00 when we were dressed and they left after making sure I ate. I said bye and turned back to my dad.
“Dad you haven’t been home for 2 weeks. Is something bothering you?” I asked. I had a new confidence in myself. That was all it took and maybe there was lack of sleep or something but he snapped.
“I’m doing my best Jessica! I can’t be home so be it! I don’t need you nagging me! Why don’t you go work on something for school? I need to be alone right now!” My dad screamed at me. It scared me and I really couldn’t understand what was wrong with him.
“Well I can’t believe you! You’re thinking about Elliot aren’t you? You are going to cheat on mom for- for that lady! She is a sl-” before I could finish my dad slapped me. I really didn’t believe it. I had no idea where all want I had said had come from. But I was shocked by what my dad did, and before I knew it I was crying. I ran outside away from him and my problems. I knew he didn’t mean to hurt me but he was just fired up. I know because I have a bad tempter just like him. I ran down the street, but I couldn’t tell where I was running it was all so blurry. It started to rain or I think it did. I ran into the forest, while I was running I found this clearing that made me feel like there were arms waiting for me to walk into them it was a very safe feeling. I sat there what could have been for hours the rain, the wind, and my tears didn’t cool the burning on my face.
It started to get dark, I couldn’t tell it there was a storm coming or if it was going to be late but either way I couldn’t wait any longer. I headed home. I got there really late. All I wanted was to come home to Buddy but instead I got rushed by Elliot. She hugged me tightly, holding me close to her. She was crying but my tears had long stopped. Why did she care so much it wasn’t like she had anything to do with me really?
“I’ll call your father and your aunt; they are out looking for you. We were all worried about you.” Elliot said still holding me swinging me back and forward slowly. I found that I was tired and I wanted to sleep I was so ready just to fall on to my bed and fall asleep. I went back to sleep on the couch. Woe up and t was late in the morning so I had to get ready fast. I got ready as fast as I could and I outside to find it was raining hard but I was late and I just didn’t care. I drove to fast, well for me at least. I got there and I had to run to get to first hour. I was late anyways through. Vicky stared at me in shock. I hadn’t been late before and I looked worse than I thought
Finally we got to lunch, they force feed me. Then Char wouldn’t leave me alone about my mystery guy. Plus he was back and I couldn’t help but stare at him. his table was full with seven of them all together, three looked pale while the others were all tan, but something set them apart from the lunch room, they were all just beautiful in there own way. The other four that weren’t pale but tan which was including the guy I couldn’t get out of my head looked like one family.
“So who is it?” Char asked for the 8th time during that lunch period. I really couldn’t stand it anymore so I pointed him out.
“Ooh, so you like Alex. Good choice when they first moved here I thought he was a hottie too. Don’t get your hopes up, like I did mine. That table doesn’t talk to anyone but themselves. The four tan ones are family lie related and the 3 super pale ones are adopted family. They all live in the same house. The guy you like name is Alex Fran. The Fran and Kayen’s families. They’re kind of strange I guess but I really think they could be cool. You know me likes the outcast. Well not to make you blush or anything but he is staring at you right now.” Char said standing up. I followed her and we walked to math class. I got my wish I was away from Mat, and just a bonus I sat behind Alex now.
Mrs. Martin yelled at us to work with our groups and I already knew all the answers and I was done. To my surprise so was Alex. The two people that were in our group tried to copy our papers but we hid them well. He and I sat there staring at anything but each other. So finally he started to talk to me.
“What couldn’t stand Freaky Mattie?” Alex asked me smiling.
I gave him a look like, no. “I couldn’t see the board.” Lie.
“You’re lying.” He whispered over the table. “I don’t blame you though.” He added. I got a strange feeling in my stomach. It was a good feeling. Then class ended after we talked for a bit more. He walked out after me. When I was walking to band outside with Vicky, everything got dizzy, my head became light, and I couldn’t see straight next thing I heard Vicky scream at me.
“Jess!” Vicky shrieked. Then everything went black. I woke up in a bright room knowing I wasn’t alone. I tried to sit up but it was hard to get up.
“Whoa, there. You just wait. Man you’re surly making yourself noticed aren’t you?” Alex’s voice was smoothing and gave me a safe feeling. Wait what had happened, what was he doing here? What was I doing out here? Was I outside? I was outside. But why?
“Where am I? What happened? Where’d Vicky go?” I asked so clueless of everything. I sounded weird and I was trying to get up again. Alex was giving me the look of, um-you-sound-like-you’re-freaking out with his eyebrows raised and a small smile on his face.
“You blacked-out. You’re n the nurse’s office. And Vicky went to class.” He said totally serious now. This time he tried to help me sit up he went to the other side of the room right after.
“Well, dear. Have you been eating right? And umm, sleeping right?” A short kind of big lady walked in shoving the door into Alex’s face. He grunted a bit but he blocked the door with his hand.
“Yes, and yes.” Lie and lie. Alex stared at me for along time. It was like he was waiting for me to tell the truth but he couldn’t possibly know I was lying but then he said this.
“She is lying.” Alex said walking out of his corner and he never took his eyes off me while he talked.
“OH,” The nurse said shocked at Alex’s appearance then she continued on, “Is she now? Hun, you need to get a better diet and more sleep right away. You can’t stay the way you are. You can get really sick.” The nurse said staring at me. I nodded. She told me that I should go home and Alex being the gentleman that he is walked out with me. I started to walk out of the office, but Elliot showed up before I could escape.
“Oh Jess, I heard what happened. I’ll come over right after school. Since your father is going to be working late again.” Elliot said. My heart and eyes dropped when she mentioned my dad. Always working late. I just nodded.
“Lose your voice, in there.” Alex whispered to me in my ear, it made me jump a little. His breath against my cheek made me blush.
“Yes, I can talk, I chose not to.” I said quietly but sternly. I started to walk away from Alex and to my car.

“Where are you going?” Alex asked me.
“Where else? Home.” I said not even looking back at him. he tried not to laugh but he laughed anyways.
“Okay but I am driving you home.” Alex said trying to get to go tot his car.
“Um no can drive just fine.” I lied just a little. I started going towards his car. I got to my car and started looking for my keys in my bag but I couldn’t find them. I looked all over. Alex stifled a laugh and I looked up.
“What?” I said then I saw through my narrowed eyes. My keys were in his hand. I just stared at them and I wanted to grab them.
“You can have them back as soon as we get to your house and when you answer my question. Why do you keep lying?” He asked. How did he always now I was lying? He took my arm and walked me towards his car. I tried to grab my keys but Alex held them in the air laughing as I jumped for them. I was defeated.
“Fine, but what about my Blazer?” I said when I realized that this was a pointless fight.
“I’ll have my sister drive it home.” We started walking, I wasn’t sure what he drive then we got to a nice new looking Hummer. I stared in disbelief. “You’re kidding right?” he smiled at me.
“Get in I’ll be back in a minute.” He said. I did my best at climbing into the Hummer but to tell the truth I could barley climb. Alex got back and in the car before I could even get in all the way. He laughed at me, and I gave him a sarcastic smile. His laugh was beautiful it made my knees feel very weak.

“So where do you live?” He asked. I told him but I struggled through it. I felt he was going to ask more questions and of course I was right.
“You never answered me.” He asked looking at me.
“About what?” I asked innocent even though I knew exactly what he was talking about.
“Why did you keep lying? Are you really that stubborn not to let anyone in? Or even trying to help you?” He asked.
“I don’t care. Most likely I’ll be out of here soon enough.” I said coldly. He’d seemed a little hurt by what I had said.
“My dad doesn’t keep us anywhere long enough so I can make friends. So why should I?” I hadn’t realized we’d stopped. He got out and I started to jump down but I fell, on top of him.
“Sorry!” I screamed getting off of him. He just sighed. “Well thanks for the ride and well making that fall more comfortable.” I said walking to the door. I hadn’t noticed that he was following me.
“Okay then bye.” I said feeling really weird and wanted him to go away.
“I’m not leaving until Elliot gets here.” He said like a-matter-of-factly. I gave him another look.
“I’m fine, trust me.” I said, lying again.
“No way. What if you faint again and hit your head. Then you start bleeding, and you lose tons of blood.” He said blood in a creepy way. Then Buddy started barking.
“Wow, someone is really negative.” I mumbled under my breath. “Well, my dog may eat you. So bye.” I said opening the door.
“Very, funny. Actually I love dogs.” He said smiling. He added something under his breath but I couldn’t hear. He followed me into my house anyways.
“Are you sure you are not the stubborn one?” I asked, rolling my eyes.
“Hey I am just trying to keep you safe.” He said, I just stared at him. “So is it your dad, then?” He added. I stared at him my eyes narrowing this time.
“What are you talking about?” I asked staring him down this time. He just continued to pet my dog, and not really ever look at me. He looked so natural there with Buddy, just petting him and like understanding what Bud wanted.
“Is that why you haven’t been eating or sleeping?” He asked.
“No.” I said upset but I was sort of lying.
“Why do you always lie! You have to tell the truth sooner or later!” he yelled at me. I just hated the fact that he was acting like he knew exactly what was going on with me.
“You don’t even know me!” I yelled back at him. And I wasn’t finished with him. “No one understands how I feel!” I finished.
“That is because you won’t let anyone in!” Alex shot back at me. I was up in his face but now he was in mine. There was silence, as we did a no winner staring contest. Then there was a knock at the door. I walked over to the door and opened it to a girl. She was about my height, tan, with piercing blue eyes like Alex’s eyes, and long black hair. Her face was amazing it was perfect and was so much like Alex’s. Right then Alex pushed past me.
“Elsie this is Jess. Jess this is Elsie my sister.” She gave me a quick smile. “Elliot should be here in a while, um try not to faint.” He said walking out with his sister and giving me my key back. I mocked his words as he left. A few minutes after that there was another knock, I opened the door to Elliot’s face.
“Oh sweetheart. I heard what happened. Come on I’ll make you some dinner.” Elliot said hugging me. I knew she was nice, and very kind, but I still hated her.
“Are you going to tell your father about this?” She added as she was making something.
“Yes.” Lie. Lucky for me detective Alex wasn’t around to call me on all my lies. I just couldn’t help but wonder how he always knew I was lying. But yet again there was no one here to answer my questions.
“Should I stay here until your dad gets home?” Elliot asked.
“No, I am sure you have a lot of work you have to do. But I would be glad if you would stay for dinner though.” I said totally unsure why I had said it at all. I didn’t want her to stay but that last thing I wanted was to be alone. I’ve been getting night-mares about this guy. There is no easy way to describe it, on how I feel when I dream it. All I know is his eyes are hungry and coming after me. I usually wake up before he can get to me but I still see his crazed eyes staring into mine every time I try to sleep. It is an unbelievably real feeling. I haven’t wanted to be alone since the dream started. Ever since I met Mat the dreams began and they got worse every night. The man got closer and closer to me every night. I didn’t tell anyone about it though, I never would either.
I finished my dinner and did my homework. During that whole time Elliot stay with me. She kept staring at me like I did something wrong. Or it was a feeling like she was worried all the time.
“Jess is something wrong?” Elliot asked me with kind eyes.
“No.” Lie.
“well you should go to bed soon. I’ll wait for Kevin. You look very tired.” Elliot said. Oh she had no idea how tired I really was but I was afraid to sleep now. I didn’t mind I was so tired. I wanted to sleep but I’d always see his face. I shut my eyes and the dream never came, I only saw Alex’s face. I couldn’t stop thinking about Alex or the man, they became mixed together. I finally didn’t cry through the night. Some time in the night I felt very safe, but I wasn’t sure why.
I woke up with mixed dreams. I got ready to go to school at a slower pace. Then when I was ready to leave, I couldn’t find my keys anywhere. Then there was a knock at the door. I opened it up to Char’s face.
“Hey, umm Elliot, well Ms. Grayson called me and told me you’d need a ride.” She said. We got into the car and I was upset. Elliot must have took my keys when I fell asleep. I couldn’t stand this.
“Char, I can trust your right?” I asked.
“Yeah.” She said sounding like she was going to laugh.
“I hate Elliot! How could she just come in and make my dad fall in love with her?! It was her fault he-” I was about to say.
“That he what?” Char asked giving me a sideways look.
“Nothing.” I said becoming quiet again. I was not in the mood to talk about this anymore. I never really wanted to talk about it ever. We go to the school right after and I jumped out. I held myself as I walked, and I think I felt a tear or two. I just kept walking trying not to notice Alex next to me. Wait Alex was next to me.
“Do you want something?” I asked.
“Why are you crying and pissed off at the same time?” He asked. I gave him a sideways glare.
“Oh, because it is fun.” I said being really sarcastic.
“You’re a really bad lair you know.” He said like it wasn’t obvious. I just tried to out walk him but I never noticed how fast he could walk. He wasn’t even breathing hard.
“I-I” didn’t know what to say. I stopped and he followed suit.
“Why are you pissed off?” He asked me looking me right in the eyes. Suddenly my knees gave out. I fell my arms flying and I screamed a little bit. Alex chuckled forever and never stopping. I got up and stared at him giving him the evilest glare I possibly could.
“You’re not good at making evil glares.” Alex said to me. I stomped off, stomping extra hard on Alex’s foot. Then I saw Elliot and all my anger went toward her.
“Where the hell are my keys?!” I demanded.
“Um hon I think that we should do this somewhere else.” She said dragging me to her classroom. “I didn’t take your keys. I stayed until your dad got home; I told him what had happened. Jess he looked really worried. When I told him again it wasn’t like he was shocked. It was like this had happened before and he knew that you wouldn’t be feeling well in the morning so that is when he took your keys and asked me to call on of your friends.” Elliot explained. She told him! Oh, god. I walked out even more pissed than before. I skipped first block since Elliot made me 15 minutes or so late. She took me to her classroom even though I really rather have been anywhere else, and I didn’t talk to her at all. She had no right to tell him.
“You had no right to tell him! He doesn’t need to know!” I yelled totally upset.
“Of course he has a right! He is your father! He should know what is going on with his daughter especially when it concerns your health!” She said back at me. Then 2 block started and everything started to go back to normal. Then lunch came around.
“So yesterday when you blacked-out, Alex rushed to your side, he was there like in seconds. Pretty cute if you ask me, and I am pretty sure he was scared then he carried you to the nurse’s office. Very cute!” Vicky said excited like I blacked-out on purpose so I had a reason to talk to Alex or something. I didn’t share her excitement. Char gave me a look like she was gagging and I couldn’t help but to start laughing.
“So that is how you feel about me saving you?” His breath crossed my face catching me off guard again. I jumped a little when he said that. It was his turn to laugh. “Come on, sit with me today.” He demanded nicely then he was gone. Vicky and Char didn’t even notice him there. I got my food and intestinally he caught my eye. I walked over to him after hiding him. I sat down feeling strange. I did feel a little bad about never thanking him.
“I’m sorry about being rude to you yesterday. I should have thanked you. So thank you.” I said trying not to hurt my pride doing this.
“Wow you are really kind. I mean with shoving all your pride aside to thank me. You’re truly one of a kind.” He said with a huge smile. I didn’t understand but the moment he smiled I became nervous with butterflies filling my stomach. I saw him a totally different light before I just thought he’d looked nice now-now I saw his personality and it was so much more beautiful.
“So are you going to tell me about your family?” I asked trying to learn more about him.
“Sure, they’re over there.” was all he had said. “What about your family?” He asked. BAM! He really struck a cord there. I didn’t want to talk about my family and my face must have showed it.
“Oh, that bad. Okay then why does Mat freak you out so much.” He said changing subjects. I gave him a look like, are you kidding me?
“Have you seen the way he looks at me. Sitting there eyes hungry for something more than just looks. He is licking his lips like I am something he can eat.” I said really annoyed and a little fired up.
“You don’t think my eyes are hungry?” He asked somewhat serious. I stared at him.
“No, they’re so calm, and smoothing. They are very trusting and they make things seem so much easier.” I said letting my voice fly away a little. He looked upset about my answer. He cursed under his breath. Then I realized that the lunchroom was empty.
“Holy shit! I already missed one class!” I ran to class even though I really didn’t need to. Alex just sat there his hands running through his hair as he looked down at the table. Seeing him there I thought him more then just the person that helped me but a friend and maybe one day something more. I wanted to stop and wait for him but I couldn’t. the rest of the day Vicky made me tell her everything, over and over again. Alex though never showed up for math. Than in band I asked about Alex’s family to Vicky.
“okay so I know that only two are actually blood related. The one that is the youngest, Elsie” I irrupted her.
“yeah I know her.”
“ok so Alex and her are blood-related. Everyone else is adopted sisters and brothers. The big one, the one that could win a fight no matter what, is Hunter. The one that is tall with blonde hair is Phil. The palest girl with kind of short hair that is black is Elizabeth. Then there is Maryann, she is the oldest of the girls and very protective. Lucas is the skinner one, Char has a thing for him just don’t tell anyone! Now for ages, Elsie is in our grade along with Phil, and Alex. Elsie is 15 and so is Phil. Alex is 16. Elizabeth, Hunter, and Maryann are 17. Lucas is 16 and a half.” Vicky wasn’t about describing unless it was gossip. I needed a little more information but I could find out more later. Then finally the day and class ended. Char drove me home and I found my dad was home.
“Good luck.” Char said driving away. Good I needed it, I thought to myself.

yeah so me and my computer were having disagreements sorry that is kind of weird looking! hope you enjoy it and i am sorry it took so long well love to hear your comments!

taken from home

ok so this is the second part of the new story that didn't have a title, i got a title for it now

Taken from Home. enjoy and comment please!

I felt something heavy on my ankle, I looked at my ankle and there as a device on my leg. I knew exactly was for these people were very smart. This device would keep me here in this town or until a limit but I knew this was bad. I had to free Jeff and myself.

I didn’t know if I should try to escape with this thing on me or get it off. then my mind wondered back to the lone werewolves and vampires that lived with humans maybe there were some here in this town. I really hoped that there was because surely they won’t let down there own kind, would they? This was getting so much harder now. Some much more complex, I knew now that my life would forever change, and I knew one other thing for sure I would find Jeff and save him.

I had to do something so I tried opening the door to find that it was locked. I knew that I could bust the door down but I don’t think that humans could do that and I didn’t need to give these people any reason to believe that I was not “human”. I knew that they were watching I could just tell. I went back to my bed and sat there. what would someone do in this situation? What would my older sister do? She was once caught by real human police and they kept her in a house but she could easily escape, I had to be strong like her. She told me everything that I could possible know about humans. They smelt different then us, and they were like us at all. These humans weren’t as fast or strong, they were so strange to her. It was weird though she said that she wouldn’t mind going back to the town she was taken too she told me and only me there was a boy there that had helped her and started to have strange feelings for him, something she couldn’t really explain. But she came home after my father got worried and came for her. I see the sadness in her eyes, how much she misses that boy, she was never the same after she left that town. I knew that I wouldn’t want to get under a spell like she was so I knew to stay away from humans.

Someone was playing with the doorknob, and then the door opened a little. A young lady stunk her head in. “Oh, good you are awake. Come on I bet you are hungry.” She said leaving and keeping the door open. I stared at the open door, I wasn’t hungry. But I had grown curious of what was outside this small room. I followed her nervous, we walked down some stairs and went into a bright yellow room, it was a kitchen thing. My sister told me about them this was where humans made there food, and mostly ate the food in here too. I stared at the room my eyes adjusting to the bright light from the darkness of my room. This was so different then anything I have seen before. There was a big rectangular thing with two doors, small ones, which a young boy about what looked like my age was digging through. He pulled himself out of the rectangular thing and stared at me.

He had short curly blond hair with big brown eyes and he didn’t seem to pleased with me. He had been wearing bright clothes, the total opposite from me. I was dark haired, that was long and straight, with all black clothes and my eyes a light blue. I could change the color of my eyes and retract my fangs and I knew from my sister that you should never show a human my fangs or my red eyes. I started thinking about home. Would they know? What was I thinking of course they’d know, they could have smelt Jeff’s blood being spilled and since I wasn’t anywhere else and I wasn’t hiding with them of course they’d know I was taken. And Jeff. I had to get him back, somehow, he was like a brother to me. We are the same age, he and I were always hanging out together, doing stupid things, always talking about leaving home and going to see a human town but we’d never really meant it. But now it looks like we got our wish. Well a least I did.

I was actually waiting for Jeff when the men came, I was waiting for him we were going to go running together and go to our spot. We found this old abandon house a couple years back. we would go there to talk about visiting a human town, our parents and the older vampires and werewolves wouldn’t ever have us talking about that. They would be so mad, but now that I was here living me and Jeff, craziest dream I knew why they were so upset with the loner vampires and werewolves. These human towns aren’t for us they are not for our kind.

The kid that was staring at me was the totally opposite from me. There was one thing though I was sure we had in common, we hated each other. He was just so weird and I didn’t like him at all. I knew he felt the same. The young lady that called me started talking again.

“Josh, this is, umm sorry I don’t actually know your name?” She said her big brown eyes staring at me. I was told to give them a fake name, always give a fake name.

“Ron.” It was the first name that came to me.

“Ron,” the young lady said like savoring the word, “you’ll be staying with me and my family, which you are looking at besides my youngest, she is only three years old, her name is Grace. Umm we have to keep you here until you can remember were you come from. I was told that you hit your head and you couldn’t remember anything, an I right?” I stared at her. I remembered everything, very clearly too. I knew though exactly what these people where playing at. I just nodded, I was told never tell them anything about our village, or anything, friends, family, anything. “Josh, make Ron here feel more comfortable, I am going to get Grace.” She said walking away.

Josh stared at me and I stared right back at him. I really didn’t like this kid. “Food is in there, get whatever you want, cups and plates are there.” Josh said pointing at different things. He pointed at the rectangular thing again, and a few small box like things that were connected to the wall. I didn’t want anything so I stood there not knowing what to do. Josh gave me a look like you are crazy. “We have to go to school today, you ready for that run-away.” He whispered to me. I was ready to punch this kid, but I didn’t touch him, not yet. The lady walked in with a little girl in her arms that seemed to be sleeping. The lady walked past me and the little girl put her hand out and touched my face. Her little hand was filled with so much warmth, it was funny thing but her touch actually made me smile.

“You can call me mom if you want or just Lily, it is your choice. I am sure Josh has told you that you have to go to school today. I don’t know why they are pushing me to push you into school so fast, meaning social service, of course. But whatever. Okay then, Josh can help you getting around and to school, I have to drop Grace off, which Josh can you pick her up?” She asked and Josh just nodded, “Okay then I will see you later tonight then.” She finished. She kissed her son on the head and just waved to me. I knew what school was cause I have to go to school to I am just wondering if it will be anything like my school at home. There was one difference already they had it during the day. Josh didn’t seem to want to help me at all. As soon as we hit the corner of the street he found his friends and walked far away from me. I just followed though, who knew if the people who took me were watching. I will be normal today and then tomorrow I will start on what I have to do to get Jeff back.